Hmmmm....

Feeling ridiculously inspired at the moment... by paint... amazing things to come...

Always Blushing,

♥

Jessica

Put The Lime In The Coconut - Harry Nilsson

        


















Oh, man.. the memories this song brought back. My best friend Angie and I used to dance all over the house (completely sober, I might add) to this song. We would have it on repeat and just dance and be completely ridiculous. It is an amazing feeling to be completely free to be yourself, no matter how silly or "ridiculous" others might think you are. Ugh, I love that girl! She is one of the few people in life that, no matter what, I always felt completely free to be myself. My love for having my photo taken stems back to high school when I was her "model" for her photography class. I felt so uncomfortable in my own skin... I felt like I was always having to put on a show to try and be someone else. It was exhausting. But, when I got in front of the camera, it was like something inside of me was set free. I dropped the barrier that I had been putting up. I let go of all the bands that I was letting tie me down. And, for one brief moment, with that camera on me, I was me. And being true to who you really are is an AMAZING feeling. 

This song, will forever remind me of high school nights spent in with my Angiebenia. Laying in her bed... box of Oreos... bottle of Coke... potato chips... just being us... no matter how silly and ridiculous we may have seemed. I loved it...  Anyways... just a little walk down memory lane...

Always Blushing,
♥
Jessica

Life...

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it. Life is a beauty, admire it. Life is a dream, realize it. Life is a challenge, meet it. Life is a duty, complete it. Life is a game, play it. Life is a promise, fulfill it. Life is a song, sing it. Life is a sorrow, overcome it. Life is a struggle, accept it. Life is a tragedy, comfort it. Life is an adventure, dare it. Life is luck, make it. And life is life, fight for it... ~Mother Teresa

Want To Know More...?

*I used to be extremely quite. * I never thought I could be considered a "business woman". * Up until this last year, I have never seen myself as anything more than average. Actually, I always saw myself as lacking in so many areas in life. * I wear a size 10.5 in women's shoes. Don't judge... I am 5'10.5" tall... it works.* If you are a man and you seriously want to get to know me... ask me questions about myself... about what I like... what I don't like. DON'T try to take beyond any sort of friend level before trying to get to know ME.* There is more to me than blonde hair.* I am smart. * I am creative* I am strong * "I would rather have 5 minutes of something wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special" * If you want to pay me a compliment, call me beautiful, don't call me hot* My daughter's are my ♥ * I am in the process of self-publishing my first (of many) books* I miss my sisters and brothers. I wish we were all closer* I do wonder when.* I am currently annoyed with 2 people, I am ok with the rest of you at the moment * My God, is an amazing God. He has given me so much peace in my heart. He has healed my heart many times. And I know that he has amazing things planned for me* "I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't live with out each other love"* As much as I crave a love like that, I will NEVER AGAIN settle for anything less than what my heart deserves*

More later...

Always Blushing,

♥

Jessica

Random Thoughts and Facts....

Here is a little bit about me... to help you see a little more into what makes me think the way I do... Total randomness of my thoughts, passions, dislikes, cravings, and more...

       I am in love with Aerosmith. I can be having the worst day, and then an Aerosmith song comes on, and my day is instantly better. * I am a one guy kind of girl. If you are "talking" to, dating, seeing, or married, please do NOT attempt to "talk" to me. I WILL find out. * I have no respect for cheaters. If you can't just be with one, be with none.* I love thunderstorms. Especially storms when the power goes out in the evening. * Skittles are my favorite non-chocolate candy. * Peanut Butter and chocolate mixed together is one of my favorite combinations. * I can NOT stand the movie A Christmas Story. That movie drives me absolutely crazy. I think that I am seriously the ONLY one in my family that doesn't like the movie. And, not only do I not like it, I can't even watch it. It bothers me that much! I have tried to watch it, and I just can't get through it * I love to write. Even if it is about nothing. I love to put my thoughts onto paper. I have always had an easier time expressing my feelings on paper. * I WILL visit Florence someday. I want to take a romantic ride in a gondola under the moon. * I have some sort of connection with the stars. Still not sure what it is the draws me in to them. But I feel an enormous amount of peace when I am under a sky completely lit up by stars. * I have had my heart truly broken twice so far in my life. Would love it if I can keep it at that number. * I am addicted to Facebook. I am always updating my statuses and checking to see if I have a notifications. * Lost 87 lbs last year. Wanting to lose 15 more. *I would love to spend an afternoon in a hot air balloon doing nothing but writing.* I love the color PINK. It makes me smile.* My daughers, Asheligh and Melanie are THE most important people in me life. They touch my heart like no other ever has. I love sappy music. I love sappy anything.* The Little Mermaid is my favorite Disney movie. I used to sing those songs at the top of my lungs while I was in the shower when I was younger.
* I ♥ Matt Wertz. His music totally touches my soul and makes my heart completely melt. I met him in Feb. of 2010. I almost fainted. I got to hear my favorite song of his, "Sweetness in Starlight". That song is exactly how I think true ♥ should feel. Totally gets to me every time. * I don't understand people with mean and cruel hearts. I HATE hurting people.  I HATE it. I don't understand people that get off on hurting someone.* I drank way too much last year. Honestly, lucky to be alive. So glad that I have opened my eyes to the world around me.* I am so amazingly blessed. I feel as though God has given me a second chance in life. Not just for my sake, but for my daughters sake.* I am fighting so hard to stay awake while I write this.* Sleep is winning*


Ok, thats a little insight into my soul... More to come later....


Always Blushing,
♥
Jessica