Hmmmm....

Do not think of a painful experience as a dark time in your life. You emerge out of everything learning something or becoming a better person. You realize who your real friends are and how much your loved ones mean to you. ~Colleen Ho

Letting Go...

To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t about winning or losing. It’s not about pride, about how you appear & it’s not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It’s not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss & it’s not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome & move on. It is having an open mind & confidence in the future. Letting go is learning, experiencing, & growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry & made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had & all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. ~Unknown

Almost 4:00 am?!?!?!?

Seriously? How did this happen? Off to dream of Sweetness in Starlight ♥ .... good night world.

Matt Wertz... Be Mine?

    I mean, seriously. Annabelle and I are working his concert on Sunday. Praying that we get to meet him. Wow, I would soooo flip if I got to meet Matt Wertz. Hmmmm.... with a voice like that... he is literally my ALL time favorite musician. Yes, that is right. You heard me. Good bye Aerosmith. OK, not really "good bye" just more like, scootch over a little. Matt Wertz has stolen my ♥. And seriously, if Matt wanted to sing me to sleep every night, I might be tempted to let him....

   

 "Sweetness In Starlight" is such a "Jessica" song. Listen to it below. I DARE you to try and tell me it isnt one of the sweetest songs EVER! ♥ IT!!! ♥ HIM!! 

"Sweetness In Starlight"

Fallin' asleep
To the sound of stars
Shooting 'round the moon
But I can't watch them fly tonight, baby
I'm too busy watchin' you.

I guess your smile is the sun's way
Of lighting up what's dark
So shine, shine, shine for me baby
It only takes a spark

Sweetness in starlight
Sweetness 'til the day sighs
Sweetness in starlight
Sweetness 'til the sun rise

And there's nothing under these bright stars
That could bring this night to ruin
So hold on tightly to me baby
Because tonight's gonna end too soon

And you're touch is potent medicine
Knocks me out with just one shot
I've never seen such strong elixir, baby
Fixes all that I'm not
You fix all that I'm not, yeah.

Sweetness in starlight
Sweetness 'til the day sighs
Sweetness in starlight
Sweetness 'til the sun rise

I'm holding so tightly, baby
I won't let you go.

I am banning my own doubts...

So, why is it that for the longest time I have dreamt of big things happening in my life. I have known that SOMEDAY I would make something out of this. I have just been waiting for that day. And now that things are starting to happen, my doubts are creeping in... BOO ON YOU! I am, from here on out, banning ALL self doubt. Ok. You hear me? Go. Be gone. Ok, great. Now that I have gotten that out of the way.... back to writing!!!!

Hmmm.... Starbucks.

Ok, so Starbucks has become my new nightly addiction. This is now my FAVORITE place to come and do writing or anything online. Just a saying a quick hello before I get back to writing!!! ♥

Imagination....

I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. 

Imagination is more important than knowledge. 

Knowledge is limited. 

Imagination encircles the world. 

Albert Einstein

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Almost two hours at Starbucks...

and this is all I came up with... lol. but I like it...

"Last Year" Zach Macko... wow.

I finally found some piece of mind
no more bein trapped inside myself
coz All this April rain,
has washed away all the pain I have had
less is sometimes more ,
so leave your baggage at the door because
there are no more worries here
I spent to much time doin that last year
no more bein alone by the telephone
waitin for you to call me, when you get home
you once were everything to me but now you are just a memory ,
and its so strange now, how I am happy ( yeah yeah )
So you go and I'll stay,
its was so unfair, it didn't have to be this way
but in my memories, they hang like picture frames
somewhere deep inside
sits a picture of you and me
Time can play mean tricks on you
But I've figured out what I should do
Its to try and live my life
Stop worrying about what others think is right
On the horizon sits this better life to live
I now know what not to do
Its to not fall in love with someone like you
no more bein alone by the telephone
waitin for you to call me, when you get home
you once were everything to me but now you are just a memory ,
its so strange now how I am happy ( yeah yeah )
So you go, and I'll stay,
It's so unfair , didn't have to be this way
but in my memories, they hang like picture frames
somewhere deep inside
there's a picture of you and me
Inside a picture frame
Things still look the same
But outside things have changed between you and me
But I guess that how it goes
Your just someone I use to know
So you can go out on your own
Because I know I'll be ok
So you go, and I'll stay,
It's so unfair , didn't have to be this way
but in my memories, they hang like picture frames
somewhere deep inside
there's a picture of you and me 

Ummm... Tweets....

Ok, so I know I should be writing... or at least working on writing... but I am SOOOO confused as to why all my Tweets are showing up on my page as having been posted like 30 days ago? So confused... just thought I would put it out there...

Hmmmm.... Gotta love a 24 hr. Starbucks

    So, I sitting at home TOTALLY inspired... TOTALLY ready to work on my blog.... TOTALLY ready to do some writing. And then, my internet stops working.... BLAH! Ok, technically, it isn't my internet... We "borrow" from our neighbors for the time being. And my connection kept going in and out. So, I packed myself up and headed out the the 24 hr Starbucks. Love it!

   I get my drink (double grande peppermint white mocha frap. light ice, no whip. In a venti cup). I grab myself a big comfy chair, get settled in. I sit down, all excited to do some writing. And.......... Nothing. And then..... more nothing. 

    And then.... something. No, not inspiration... but free coffee. Thats right... FREE coffee. A cup of dark cherry mocha. And, to my surprise... delicious. 

   But, back to my original dilemma... where did my inspiration go?!?!?!? Hmmmm.... I am a little lost. But, I must admit, I love Starbucks at night. I think I will be up all night now, lol. But, so worth it. 
   Ok, time to get back on track.... lets get some writing done!

My True Inspiration...

I have been so amazingly blessed by so many people in my life. But the 2 most important and greatest sources of inspiration are my little girls Ashleigh and Melanie... I look at these two beautiful girls and I see who I want to be. I am so blessed to be their Mommy... ♥

Work!!!

      I have been working! And creating! And ♥ing it!!! I have been scrapping and writing and do all sorts of creating... so inspired lately... I just can't seem to get enough. Here are a few of my recent works or projects... some of these are a little older... but I love them so much I had to share.
      This is one of my favorite pieces that I have been working on. I need to finish painting the frame. I soooo wish that this would have photographed better...but, non the less, I still love it. I took a large canvas board and covered it with different sized pieces of scrapbook paper. I took different shades and patterns of blue and green papers. I covered the entire board with the papers and then painted over the paper. I used a few different colors of paint and used different methods of distressing the board to get this look. I masked off the letter "D". I took gold paint and painted a large area of the canvas (including on top of the "D"). I took a script stamp that I had and stamped it into the large gold area. And, then I stamped all over the canvas. I then took a bright gold and mixed it with something (and for the LIFE OF ME I can't remember what the heck it was) and created a 3-d effect. I stamped the rest of the word "dream" into that and left the imprint of the letters "r-e-a-m". I still have a long way to go on this piece... but I am loving it.

These are just a few layouts that I have created over the past few months...

This is one of my favorite books that I made last year, "Life".

I believe...From Audrey... to Me...

"I believe in pink. 

I believe that laughing is the

 best calorie burner. 

I believe in kissing, kissing alot. 

I believe in being strong when 

everything seems to be going wrong. 

I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. 

I believe that tomorrow is another day and 

I believe in miracles" 

~ Audrey Hepburn

"I believe in my heart.

I believe in crying real tears.

I believe that kissing is a must in life.

I believe there are many possibilities 

when it comes to love.

But I believe there is one true love out

there, waiting for me.

I believe that God will never leave me.

And I believe that love always wins."

~ Jessica Goetke

What a weekend....

     CrAzY busy week. But, what an awesome one it was. Reconnecting with old friends... new friends... my sister's wedding!

It was an amazing week. I am always so amazed at how easy it is to reconnect with people you haven't spoken with in some time... ♥ it!

     With so much going on around me this past week, I was feeling so inspired... so creative. And for the first time in such a long time I was able to write! Started working on a new book, wrote a few poems, and I even wrote a few songs! So stoked! My sister Annabelle has been working on them and recording them... they are killer, if I do say so myself ;-) (click her name to visit her Myspace music page).

    Time to really get my head on straight and put all these amazing ideas I have to work... things to create.... dreams to follow... history to write... I just need to start.... 

    With that in mind... I can't wait to start sharing some of my new writing.... and when we have "Memories" and "Running" (songs written by me and performed by Annabelle) up and ready, I will soooo be putting them online.