"Bare Naked" by Jessica Michelle

I have posted this poem before, but it is stuck in my mind for some reason today.... soooooooooo reposting!

I'm bare naked...

but I'm dressed from head to toe.

My heart out in the open

there's nowhere for it to go.

I traveled and searched so long

only to walk this road alone.

I'm bare naked...

I'm on my own.

I'm bare naked....

but I'm dressed from head to toe.

these eyes they keep on searching

for something to call my own.

I wait and wait and wait some more

for a voice to lead me home.

I'm bare naked...

I'm on my own.

I'm bare naked....

but I'm dressed from head to toe.

So much to be discovered

so much more than you know.

More than just a vessel

swept up in the undertow

I'm bare naked...

I'm on my own.

I'm bare naked....

but I'm dressed from head to toe.

There's a truth in my reflection

Singing a song you should know.

Throwing away the mask

Screaming to let go.

I'm bare naked...

I'm on my own.

I'm bare naked....

but I'm dressed from head to toe.

Giving into the heartache

and learning to let go.

Listening to the tear drops

they tell me all I need to know.

I'm bare naked...

I'm on my own.

I'm bare naked....

but I'm dressed from head to toe.

A soul to be discovered

learning lessons as I go.

A temple to be honored

My value someday I will know.

I'm bare naked...

I'm on my own.

Always Blushing,

♥

Jessica Michelle

I Dream In Love...

I dream in love.

In a silent rage

thoughts filling the void 

and now filling the page.

        I am the type of girl that wears her heart on her sleeve. That is not only a well known fact, but it is a ridiculously obvious fact. Take a look at my blog or my Facebook page (either of them), and you can tell right away that I have no problem expressing how I feel. I have gotten over the guilt and/or the silliness that I once associated with expressing negative feelings. I used to think that it was so much better to sugar coat things, rather than to tell the world how I was really feeling. I was wrong.
         There was, however, a point in my life where I did keep my thoughts and opinions to myself. I was afraid that if I voiced how I really felt about something then that would open the door for other people to voice how they felt about me. That was one of my BIGGEST fears. I was so afraid to know what/how people really felt about me. I did whatever I could to really vanish into the background and become as un-noticable as possible. I stopped putting any effort into how I looked... I am 5'10.5 and  I already felt like I stood out. I figured if I stopped putting any effort into how I looked, well, that would help me to vanish into the background. And if I vanished into the background  there wouldn't be any way for anyone to notice me. And, if they didn't notice me, then they couldn't judge me. I didn't like myself, so why would anyone else like me? If I couldn't think of positive things about myself, then how would anyone else be able to? I could see so many negative things about myself and I figured that that was all that anyone else would be able to see. I thought that it would be an easy thing to do.... to sit back and try to hide from the world. And at first it was. But I got so caught up in hiding myself from the world, that I began to forget who I was. It's a scary place to be when you look into the mirror and don't recognize the person staring back... its even scarier when you close your eyes and night and don't recognize the tune that your thoughts are dancing to. And one day. I snapped. I woke up. I stopped (for the most part) giving a damn about what people really thought about me. It is definitely a struggle to keep the negative thoughts out.... but it the more love I put out into the world, the easier it becomes to allow love in my own life.

Always Blushing
♥
Jessica Michelle

“Don’t think outside the box; think like there IS no box.”

          Isn't it amazing how easily we can get trapped inside our minds? Running around in circles trying to find the way out? We can run and run and run and still never find the door that we are looking for. But, once we slow down... take a breath... and look around us, we see that, while the door we are looking for may not be there, there are plenty of windows to look out.
Anyways, just a quick thought.

Always Blushing,

♥

Jessica Michelle