3 Words... Popcorn Parade Productions

Chris Casanta, Jessica Goetke (me), Paul Gruber

Big things to come...

Always Blushing....

♥ 

Jessica

There's a BLOCK!!!!

Ugh.... 

can't seem to put anything on paper... 

well, on screen.... 

I am working on the computer. 

I

AM

BLOCKED....

BOO

A little pre-occupied tonight...

"Walk Away"

by  Ben Harper
Oh no 

Here comes that sun again

That means another day

Without you my friend

And it hurts me 

To look into the mirror at myself

And it hurts even more 

To have to be with somebody else

And it's so hard to do

And so easy to say

But sometimes 

Sometimes you just have to walk away

Walk away

With so many people

To love in my life

Why do I worry 

About one

But you put the happy

In my ness

You put the good times

Into my fun

And it's so hard to do

And so easy to say

But sometimes

Sometimes you just have to walk away

Walk away

And head for the door 

We've tried the goodbye

So many days

We walk in the same direction

So that we could never stray

They say if you love somebody

Than you have got to set them free

But I would rather be locked to you

Than live in this pain and misery

They say time will

Make all this go away

But it's time that has taken my tomorrows

And turned them into yesterdays

And once again that rising sun 

Is droppin' on down

And once again you my friend

Are nowhere to be found

And it's so hard to do

And so easy to say

But sometimes

Sometimes you just have to walk away

Walk away

And head for the door

You just walk away

Walk away 

Was headed to Starbucks...

      But on the way there I started painting my nails.... ok, get off my back, lol. I was doing it at red lights. Not while I was literally driving. Anyways... got to Starbucks, only to realize that my nails are STILL wet... so, I am sitting in my car... hooked up to their WI-FI!!!! ♥ it!
    And, because I know you are sooooo curious... my nails were red... and now they are pink... "pink blush" to be exact. I know... it would have driven you crazy :-)
     Work tonight. Then possibly coffee? Not sure... either way.... see you all soon!!!
♥

Meeting at Starbucks...

Getting amazing work done.... ♥ it...

"Miss Invisible" ~ Marie Digby ... through my eyes

     So, I never felt exactly that way.... but, growing up I never felt up to par. But I kind of think that is a common thing for women now days. There are so many images being pushed upon us as women of what we should be and what we should look like... how we should act... what we should be...

* not pretty enough

* not thin enough

* not funny

* not smart enough

*too flirty

*too much of a prude

*And let me take a moment to address that I completely understand that men are faced with many of these same issues as well, but, in all honesty... I am a chick... so it is a little hard for me to write from a mans point of view*

        It is soooo easy to focus on the things in life that we think we aren't instead of focusing on all the amazing things that we are. I spent so much time in high school wishing I was so much more than what I was. I was never a amazingly popular girl. I had friends. I knew of most people in school... but I was extremely introverted. Wouldn't say "hi" or approach someone unless we were really close friends. I had a small group of friends that I felt 100% comfortable around. But, I never really broke down my own wall of insecurities enough to let others in. 

     Well, now, all I have to say to that is BOO on that. I look back and am a little bummed about all of the people I never really got to know because I was too shy to say hello. All the experiences I missed out on because I was too nervous to let people get to know me. And, what I am discovering more and more each day is that people are more likely to really like you and get to know you when you actually are YOU and not trying to be someone else. 

     Ugh, who wants to spend the day being fake.... being something that you are not?!?!?! It's exhausting. Spent 7 years of my life trying to live up to what others thought that I should be...to what certain people thought I "could" be.... honestly, spent 7 years of my life trying to be what certain people wanted to be themselves but couldn't.... and damn it.... I am never doing that again. Lol. I am not 100% sure who I am. But, seriously. I am 27. Who at 27 knows exactly who they are?

     And if, you do.... GREAT! Happy for you. Seriously! But, I am not there yet.... and I am enjoying the process of finding me!  I am enjoying my journey of discovery in life... And just like I am giving you the freedom to spread your wings and be YOU in life... I think that you should do the same for me. 

     ♥

"Miss Invisible" ~ Marie Digby (part 1)

"Miss Invisible"

There's a girl

Who sits under the bleachers

Just another day eating alone

And though she smiles

There is something just hiding

And she cant find a way to relate

She just goes unnoticed

As the crowd passes by

And she'll pretend to be busy

When inside she just wants to cry

She'll say...

[Chorus]

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible

Look a little closer, I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes

Take another look at the face of Miss Always Invisible

Look a little harder and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day

When you'll ask her her name

The beginning, in the first weeks of class

She did everything to try and fit in

But the others they couldn't seem to get past all the things that mismatched on the surface

And she would close her eyes when they left and she fell down the stairs

And the more that they joked

And the more that they screamed

She retreated to where she is now

And she'll sing...

[Chorus]

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible

Look a little harder I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes

Take a little look at the face of Miss Always Invisible

Look a little closer and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day that you will ask her...her name

And one day just the same as the last

Just the days been in counting the time

Came a boy that sat under the bleachers just a little bit further behind... 

New Projects

    What a killer past two days. A million new projects in the works. And what is even more amazing is that I am soooo stoked about getting started with each of them.
    There is one in particular, one that I am working on my own, that will be a little rough. I am excited about it, but it is going to require me to be EXTREMELY honest with myself. I started writing a new book. I came up with the idea while driving home from Orlando the other night. Won't go into too much detail, but after reading it people will definitely know a lot more about me. I am honestly very excited about it! It'll be very therapeutic in a way. Wishing I could stay home and get back to writing... but... work calls me...boo.

A Million and One Projects....

and some how managing to make time for all of them. ♥ it! I am so excited. I have a feeling tonight is going to be a late night of writing and brain storming.

So sleepy....

But what an amazing night... too tired to write alot tonight.... but a picture DEFINITELY say a thousand words...

Off to dream of Sweetness in Starlight...