"Miss Invisible" ~ Marie Digby ... through my eyes

     So, I never felt exactly that way.... but, growing up I never felt up to par. But I kind of think that is a common thing for women now days. There are so many images being pushed upon us as women of what we should be and what we should look like... how we should act... what we should be...

* not pretty enough

* not thin enough

* not funny

* not smart enough

*too flirty

*too much of a prude

*And let me take a moment to address that I completely understand that men are faced with many of these same issues as well, but, in all honesty... I am a chick... so it is a little hard for me to write from a mans point of view*

        It is soooo easy to focus on the things in life that we think we aren't instead of focusing on all the amazing things that we are. I spent so much time in high school wishing I was so much more than what I was. I was never a amazingly popular girl. I had friends. I knew of most people in school... but I was extremely introverted. Wouldn't say "hi" or approach someone unless we were really close friends. I had a small group of friends that I felt 100% comfortable around. But, I never really broke down my own wall of insecurities enough to let others in. 

     Well, now, all I have to say to that is BOO on that. I look back and am a little bummed about all of the people I never really got to know because I was too shy to say hello. All the experiences I missed out on because I was too nervous to let people get to know me. And, what I am discovering more and more each day is that people are more likely to really like you and get to know you when you actually are YOU and not trying to be someone else. 

     Ugh, who wants to spend the day being fake.... being something that you are not?!?!?! It's exhausting. Spent 7 years of my life trying to live up to what others thought that I should be...to what certain people thought I "could" be.... honestly, spent 7 years of my life trying to be what certain people wanted to be themselves but couldn't.... and damn it.... I am never doing that again. Lol. I am not 100% sure who I am. But, seriously. I am 27. Who at 27 knows exactly who they are?

     And if, you do.... GREAT! Happy for you. Seriously! But, I am not there yet.... and I am enjoying the process of finding me!  I am enjoying my journey of discovery in life... And just like I am giving you the freedom to spread your wings and be YOU in life... I think that you should do the same for me. 

     ♥