Let it go...

       LET IT GO. Three words. Such a small sentence. Seems like it would be such an easy task to accomplish... lol. "Seems" would be the operative word here. Why is it there are some things in life that are so damn easy to let go of. There are some people and some situations in life that, honestly, I have barely had to think twice about before deciding they were not worthy of being a part of my life. But, at the same time, there have been some people and some situations that I have seriously struggled with my soul about. Situations, caused by people, that I basically, by letting that certain person stay in my life, well, I let happen repeatedly. And people, well, there were and quite honestly still are people in my life, who just don't belong or really deserve to be here. Sounds a bit harsh? Sure... but it is the truth. Why do I keep these people in my life who repeatedly hurt me? People who obviously didn't care enough to stop hurting me. People who, most likely, will hurt me again. Why do we allow these types of people to remain a part of our lives? Why do we allow ourselves to be subjected to repeated acts against our hearts? There seem to be a select few people in my life currently, that no matter the level of offense, I allow them back through the doors of my life. And, I am not talking anything romantic. I am talking about people that are supposed to be my friends. Why do I allow them to remain in my life at all?
        I got to thinking about this tonight. By keeping these certain people in my life, at any extent, I am keeping the feelings that go along with them present in my life. And by keeping those feelings present in my life, well... I let those feeling creep and make their way into other situations in my life, where they really don't belong. Lets say, every time I went out to dinner with person "A" they oinked at me and called me a pig (this doesn't really happen, just an illustration). I am the kind of person that would be nervous about other people doing that as well. I would be nervous, even if just a little bit, that person "B" might do the same thing. So, not only would that be frustrating and exhausting on my end, but it is totally unfair to person "B".  By allowing person "A" to stay in my life, I bring them into other situations where they seriously have no place or purpose.
         I have caught myself doing this A LOT lately. Letting mistakes of people from my past creep in and make their way into my heart when trying to "deal" with life in the present. As I lay here in bed, I am almost laughing at myself. I would think, or at least, I would hope that after coming so far with my heart... after spending the past year really trying to get to know my heart, I would hope that I would be able to really focus on what I believe to be true about a situation, without the influence of outside "ridiculousness". BUT obviously, I am not completely there yet. BUT, I am glad that I am catching myself before I really let the "ridiculousness" take up much more of my time.
         So, I have decided, that not only am I "letting go" of certain people; I will grind up the feelings that they have caused me and I will blow them away like dust in the wind. No longer will I let the frustration, heartache and bitterness that crept into my heart because of these people have an affect on my future. Life is too short. There ARE people out there that ARE amazing ... with honest and true hearts. Why keep something in your life that really didn't deserve to be there in the first place?

Always Blushing,
♥
Jessica